When I was little, I loved the concept of reinvention. My favorite books were the ones where the heroine went away for a period of time, and came back completely different. Vacation was an opportunity to completely reinvent myself – I was always wishing we could go somewhere really exotic, like England, and I would come back with an accent, different hair, and a whole new outlook on life.
Now that I’m an adult, I am very thankful I never had the opportunity to make that sort of ‘reinvention’ a reality – and that it never occurred to me to try to adopt a southern accent. Even though I did a ton of things as a kid that make me cringe now, I don’t think I could handle it if I had like, dyed my hair blonde and talked with an English accent because my family went to Europe for a week. Although I guess that’s basically what Madonna did, so maybe I would have been ahead of my time?
The interesting thing about personal change and growth is that it often happens when you least expect it. I would consider the past 5 years to be pretty packed full of change – I am a very different person than I was when I started college – but it never felt like I was changing.
I think that kind of passive change is to be expected – but I’ve also been interested in living my life a little more intentionally. I’ve talked about challenging my fundamental ‘truths’, and now I’m thinking that while reinvention is a bit extreme, thinking about the type of person you want to be and working toward that is a worthwhile goal.
I want to be the type of person who is:
On time (I am actually getting way better at this)
Present (for example, not using my phone in social situations, except to take photos)
Organized and prepared, especially for situations where being organized means you can be thoughtful – like sending out birthday gifts on time.
Able to make most of my clothing. But not like, wearing stuff that’s obviously homemade.
Able to let things go. (My dad and my brother say that I have a ‘bank’ where I keep old grudges. Uh.. not great.)
It’s an exciting concept to think that the qualities I admire in others could be qualities I cultivate in myself – that even though you’re born with a personality and set of things you’re good/bad at, it doesn’t mean you’re stuck that way for life. Now to work on that accent…
On a housekeeping note – As part of the whole push to become more organized and prepared, I’ve decided to knock my posting down to three times a week. I know what you’re thinking – ‘Alison, you have barely stuck to a once a week schedule’ – and that’s true! I have been slackin’ this summer. But I decided that it would be easier for me to stick to posting on a regular schedule and provide really good content if I didn’t feel like I had to shoot for the 5 day schedule that was my goal previously. So, from here on out you can expect a post from me on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.